Everyone
was filled with awe and praised God saying, ‘A great prophet has appeared among
us; God has visited his people.’ And this opinion of him spread throughout
Judaea and all over the countryside.
Luke 7:16 - 17
When we are bereaved, we fall onto the
language that we have learned over the years that helps us to express our grief
and give meaning to our loss. It’s not our everyday language. Our loved ones
are with God, gone to heaven, resting in
peace, alive forever, with Grandma, in our hearts, entered eternal life and
we euphemise about death, avoiding the word altogether by talking about passing away, passing over, passed on or
just passed. What does this all mean?
And what makes us use this language?
Death is common to every living thing.
Including us. Yet we live as if there is no tomorrow, we surround ourselves
with objects, relationships, ideas and experiences that emphasise the present,
that celebrate the here and now, participation, consumption. Death is the
ultimate threat to our way of life. Many of us have forgotten how to grieve,
how to mourn and how to let go.
Indeed, what lies beyond our final breath?
For the early Hebrews there was sheol,
the place of the dead, eventually displaced by an afterlife. The Greeks called
this underworld hades. The Abrahamic
religions came to accept that our post-death destination was both earned and
eternal. But what is it that ‘lives on’? Will our egos survive? Is the whole
notion of life after death a mere human construction to hang our need for
something beyond? Can I suggest that I have been asking the wrong question? The
question ought be, what happens to me
when someone I love dies?
The story of the raising of the widow of
Nain’s son is a story unique to Luke (7:11 – 17). Her only son has died and he
was being carried out of the town to be buried. His mother was accompanied by a
considerable number of townspeople. Jesus and a great number of disciples were
entering the town at the same time. Jesus saw her and was sorry for her. Sorry for her in her state of grief, sorry that
being a widow the early death of her only son would mean poverty, eking out a
living at the edge of society. Jesus had compassion
for her, for he sensed the enormity of her loss. She is indeed bereft.
Jesus placed his hand on the man’s bier
and spoke to him: Young man, I tell you
to get up. He sat up and began to talk, then Jesus gave him to his mother. In doing this it is the widow’s life
that is restored, she now has a life to live, a purpose, a support, a reason to
get up every day, she will be a mother-in-law, a grandmother.
The miracle is not about the raising of
the dead, it is the story of the raising of the living, of being transformed,
made anew with the power and presence of Jesus. It is he who makes a difference
in my life, who makes it possible to get through the difficulties, pain and
hardship of everyday living.
No one asks the young man, ‘Was there
anything on the other side?’ No. I need to constantly remind myself that in
losing those I love in death, I am also open and available to the transforming
love and compassion of others. There is new life for all of us.
Peter Douglas
HEAD OF SCHOOL SERVICES, NORTH
The big question: Does my life have meaning?
by Parker J Palmer
“I cannot write any more. All that I have
written seems like straw to me.”
Those are the words of Thomas Aquinas
— Saint Thomas
Aquinas to Catholics, one of the Western world’s most influential
philosophers and theologians — spoken three months before he died in 1274.
Aquinas was answering a question asked by people in every walk of life, from
parents to plumbers to professors, people like you and me who will never
achieve Aquinas’s fame. It’s asked by adults of all ages, but perhaps most
urgently by elders who wonder if they will leave anything of value behind: does
my life have meaning?
At age 77, I find that question rising in
me more often than it did when I was young. Sometimes, I’m able to affirm that
I’ve made meaningful contributions in at least parts of my personal and work
life. At other times, everything I’ve done seems as flimsy and flammable as
straw.
If you’ve ever been downcast about the
meaning of your life, you know that reassurance from others, no matter how
generous, doesn’t do the trick. Everyone has to answer the question for him or
herself, at least that’s what I thought until 5:15 a.m. on Thursday, May 12th.
I was starting my day as I always do, with
coffee and poetry, when I ran across a
poem on the nature of love by the Nobel Prize-winning, Polish poet Czeslaw
Milosz. As I read and re-read it, I began to see that brooding on “Does my
life have meaning?” is a road to nowhere. Whether I give myself a thumbs up or
a thumbs down, there’s a flaw at the heart of the question — a flaw created by
our old nemesis, the overweening ego. Here’s the poem that opened my eyes:
Love
Love means to learn to look at yourself
The way one looks at distant things
For you are only one thing among many.
And whoever sees that way heals his heart,
Without knowing it, from various ills.
A bird and a tree say to him: Friend.
The way one looks at distant things
For you are only one thing among many.
And whoever sees that way heals his heart,
Without knowing it, from various ills.
A bird and a tree say to him: Friend.
Then he wants to use himself and things
So that they stand in the glow of ripeness.
It doesn't matter whether he knows what he serves:
Who serves best doesn't always understand.
So that they stand in the glow of ripeness.
It doesn't matter whether he knows what he serves:
Who serves best doesn't always understand.
There’s
truth and liberation in those last two lines. The truth is that I often don’t
know whom or what I serve. The thing I set out to achieve turns out to be less
meaningful than its unintended and often unknown consequences.
I remember, for example, a talk I gave a
long time ago. My intent was to blow away the audience with the power of my
ideas, but they were not impressed. It took weeks to get the bitter taste of
failure out of my mouth. Years later, by rare chance, I met a person who’d been
in that audience. “I’m glad to meet you,” she said. “I’ve wanted to tell you
how your talk changed everything for me.”
Her words were a powerful reminder that I
often don’t and can’t know — let alone control — the meaning of my life. All
that’s in my power are my own intentions and my willingness to give myself to
them. As Milosz says:
“It doesn’t matter whether he [she] knows
what he [she] serves.”
The poet goes on to say, “Who serves best
doesn’t always understand.” I find those words liberating because there’s so
much about life that’s triple-wrapped in mystery. When I’m sure I know exactly
what I’m doing and why — so sure that I miss vital clues about what’s really
needed and what I really have to offer — it’s a sign that my ego’s in charge,
and that’s dangerous. My best offerings come from a deeper, more intuitive
place that I can only call my soul. Embracing the fact that there’s no way to
know with precision whom or what I’m serving helps free me from the ego’s
dominion.
Speaking of the ego, the first few lines
of Milosz’s poem are a direct challenge to its domination: “Love means to learn
to look at yourself / The way one looks at distant things / For you are only
one thing among many.” Ah, yes, now I remember: I'm not the sun at the center
of anyone’s solar system! If I put myself there with the insistence that my
life have a special meaning of some sort, I’ll die in despair, or delusion.
Peace comes when I understand that I am
“only one thing among many,” no more and no less important than the bird and
the tree Milosz writes about. There’s much I don’t know about birds and trees,
but this I know for sure: they don’t wonder or worry about whether their lives
have meaning. They simply be what they be and, in the process, serve people
like me who are elevated by their presence.
Milosz says, “whoever sees that way heals
his heart, / Without knowing it, from various ills.” Time and again, that’s
been my experience. There’s nothing like a walk in the woods, alongside the
ocean, into the mountains or across the desert to put my life in perspective
and help me take heart again. In places such as those, the things of nature
befriend me — just as Milosz says they will — as I settle into the comforting
knowledge that I am “only one thing among many.”
Then there are Milosz’s beautiful words
about allowing one’s self and the world of things to “stand in the glow of
ripeness.” Please don’t ask me exactly what that means, because I don’t know!
But I do know this: once I understand that I’m not the sun at the center of
anyone’s solar system, I can step aside, stop casting a shadow everywhere I go,
and allow the true sun to shine on everyone and everything, making all things
ripe with the glow of new life. This, it would seem, is Milosz’s ultimate
definition of love, and it works for me.
So, for the moment, I rest easy with the
notion that I don’t need to ask or answer the question, “Does my life have
meaning?” All I need do is to keep living as one among many as well as I can,
hoping to help myself and others “stand in the glow of ripeness.”
If the big question returns to me over the
next few days or weeks, and I find myself struggling to come up with a ”Yes” or
dodge a “No,” I won’t be surprised. When it comes to jailbreaks like the one
Milosz’s poem gave me, I’m a life-long recidivist — or, to spin it more
positively, a life-long re-learner.
It’s not easy to subdue the inflated ego
and loose the adventuresome soul. But whenever we can do so, it saves us grief
and serves the world well. So if you see me on the street one day, quietly
muttering “only one thing among many, only one thing among many,” you’ll know
I’m still working on it — or it’s still working on me.
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